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M3rry fucking Christmas!

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Hello EP, it's been too long.

It has been quite some time sense I’ve posted anything here on EP, this is due to a lack of inspiration that is due to a busy life of learning and taking pleasure in the moments I’ve had in relaxation. Now, now I have far too much time to think and far too little to do. Season’s greetings, happy holidays, merry Christmas.

In the time I’ve been away I’ve been studying diligently. New software to learn, new programming languages to learn, new people to meet (who are mostly the same to those I’ve met before), but most joyous of all, new methods of thinking.

As for my own down time, reading, vast amounts of reading. And of course the ever pleasant and present distraction of video games. The homeliness of the virtual realities that have sustained me during my times of sorrow and overwhelming loneliness. An almost physical manifestation of my dreams without the aids of drugs, a life that I’ve been striving to disinvolve myself from in the hopes of improving myself (to what aims I’ve yet to rationalise or divine, it is just something new, or old, depending on how you look at it, to do).

If any remember, an ex-girlfriend contacted me relatively recently and it affected me deeply. Once that fantasy was torn apart I recklessly and foolishly sort other souls to be joined in. With the memories and pains of lost love freshly weighing on my mind and metaphorical heart I caused needless suffering to those who became attached to me. All in a fruitless effort to disassociate and to forget the one I truly cared for and loved. An act I have trouble forgiving myself for as I’ve done this many a time with varying results of ‘understanding’.

As a side note, thank you Sany for your patience and your (true, experienced) understanding.

So. In this time of inactivity, I’ve been drawn to thoughts that the more optimistic side of myself would call philosophical. If any who read this have read (or more to the point, thought) of philosophy, then you would know that a mere blog post is not enough to express philosophical thoughts. As arrogant as that sounds, it most certainly is not, there literally is too much to speak of to explain the subjective concept thought to a point of clarity. Hence the need for art, “a picture is worth a thousand words”.

 Considering my pessimistic (Meaning: an optimist sorely disappointed by reality, a reality that is so ‘easily’ changed by society’s priorities) disposition, little of my thoughts are of a positive nature. Those that are, are of a scientific nature. Quantifiable, logical, readily understandable, ‘facts’ (philosophy: facts are changeable with new data, such is the nature of epistemology when viewed from an ‘available theory’ perspective) are of a comfort to me. Almost contradictory, history has been of great interest to me. To ignore the past is to doom yourself to repeat it in the future. 

(http://wiki.answers.com/Q/Who_said_Those_who_ignore_history_are_bound_to_repeat_it)

 People, humans, life, the society we (all of us contribute to it wether we realise it or not, despite the illusion of a democracy [two party] that is emulated across those nations that proclaim it to be a source of ‘enlightenment’) create. To those that are free of thought, it is a mad world, one worthy of hope and dreams, and one worth morning for the state of which it has become.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4N3N1MlvVc4
 
For those of you who know HTML code < / end rant >
May your lives be more fulfilling and joyous than my own.

Entertainment

 

Hey Kids, Check Out The Original 'Emo'!

 

Wrap me in always, and drag me in with maybes
Your innocence is treasure, your innocence is death
Your innocence is all I have
Breathing underwater, and living under glass
And if you spin your love around
The secrets of your dreams
You may find your love is gone
And is not quite what it seemed
To appear to disappear
Beneath all your darkest fears
I believe in never, I believe in all the way
But belief is not to notice, belief is just some faith
And faith can't help you to escape
And with this ring I wed thee true
And with this ring I wed thee now
And with this ring I play so dead
But no one's asking for the truth, so let me tell you
If you spin your love around
The secrets of your dreams
You may find your love is gone
And is not quite what it seemed
To appear to disappear
Beneath all your darkest fears
To the revelations of fresh faced youth
No one will come to save you
So speak your peace in the murmurs drawn
But youth is wasted on the young
Your strength is my weakness, your weakness my hate
My love for you just can't explain
Why we're forever frozen, forever beautiful,
Forever lost inside ourselves
The night has come to hold us young

Because it Makes me Feel Better

 

On a Happy Note, Eye Candy and Puns

 

On a Happy Note, Eye Candy and Puns

 

My State of Mind

 

Of course this is only another person’s impression however, this mirrors the turmoil that rages within me. I  journey through my my own mind traveling through my own wraiths and ghouls trying to find a peace and comfort that has only been found in “sin”. As much as I ask, no 'god' has ever forgiven me.

Lyrics, for those of you who need it.

My shadow's shedding skin, I've been picking scabs again.
I'm down digging through my old muscles looking for a clue.

I've been crawling on my belly clearing out what could've been.
I've been wallowing in my own confused and insecure delusions.
For a piece to cross me over or a word to guide me in.
I wanna feel the changes coming down.
I wanna know what I've been hiding in my shadow.

Change is coming through my shadow.
My shadow's shedding skin.
I've been picking my scabs again.

Join in my.. join in my child.
Shadow's closer to me.

I've been crawling on my belly clearing out what could've been.
I've been wallowing in my own chaotic, insecure delusions.

I wanna feel the change consume me, feel the outside turning in.
I wanna feel the metamorphosis and cleansing I've endured in my shadow.

Change is coming.
Now is my time.
Listen to my muscle memory.
Contemplate what I've been clinging to.
Forty-six and 2 ahead of me.

I choose to live and to grow. 
Take and give and to move.
Learn and love and to cry. 
Kill and die and to be paranoid.
And to lie, hate and fear and to do what it takes to move through.

I choose to live and to lie.
Kill and give and to die.
Learn and love and to do what it takes to step through.

See my shadow changing stretching up and over me.
Soften this old armor.
Hoping I can clear the way by stepping through my shadow.
Coming out the other side.
Step into the shadow.
Forty six and 2 are just ahead of me.

Maths... With Guns and Jetpacks

 

I was in a game of Battlefield 3 and told the players on the server that a new Tribes game had come out. Someone described it as 'epic', I said it was maths with guns and jetpacks, "yeah, hence epic'! Gamers are awesome.

Stuff and Things

Well I haven’t written anything for EP in quite a while, so forgive me if I’m a bit rusty. So, what’s been going on in LordNothing’s life?
 
Well I bombed out of uni, I despise maths with a passion. I’m told that I’m good at it once I pick it up, but everything I’ve learnt in school and so on has been forgotten, so I needed to start at square one. The real shame is that I didn’t finish philosophy, I was really enjoying it! But I’ve been doing my own research and study in my spare time. So I’ve started on my plan B, going back to TAFE (it’s like uni but not) to do my Certificate IV in IT so that I can circumnavigate doing maths in order to do an IT degree at uni.
 
Speaking of computers, I’ve upgraded my machine. Believe me, this has been a highlight of my life. I saved up some money, email a friend I made while doing IT Cert III, we arranged to meet at my place to go to the computer markets. Ok so I was excited about the upgrade, very excited, “as giddy as a school boy” to quote Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade. So when my friend was ten minutes late I caught the bus to the markets, pick up the goods, and arrived home two and half hours later to find my mate sitting in his car. He thought I was still sleeping. Ok to cut a long story short, bent pins on the CPU, a dead mouse, faulty RAM, a lack of power from the PSU to power the video card, subway sandwiches, and a dude named Theo. The birth of Pandora MKII.I was a very eventful day.
 
For those of you who know the difference between Molex and SATA. CPU: AMD Phenom II x4 955 Black Edition 3.2Ghz. Motherboard: Gigabyte GA-990FXA-UD3. Graphics Adapter: ASUS Radeon HD 7770 1GB GDDR5. RAM: El Cheapo Corsair 4GB DDR3. PSU: Altech 620w NeoECO.
 
I’ve recently dreamed up a DIY project. My mother gave me a Digital/HD TV tuner for the computer, it works but the antenna is a POS, it picked up six out of twenty channels with very little signal strength. So I’ve resolved to build my own antenna, and yes I’ll be using wire coat hangers. I found these design specs  http://blog.makezine.com/2009/01/12/maker-workshop-pdf-dtv-antenna/  and I quizzed an electrician on the components needed and how to improve on the design. It should be fun!
 
I’m also going to be making an stencil of this  http://www.google.com.au/imgres?q=caution+this+machine+has+no+brain&hl=en&sa=X&biw=1280&bih=939&tbm=isch&prmd=imvns&tbnid=isSffKL97V1bGM:&imgrefurl=http://www.amazon.co.uk/L2332-LARGE-CAUTION-MACHINE-ADVERTISING/dp/B002XMTXYW&docid=wgGimTWxDeFZyM&imgurl=http://ecx.images-amazon.com/images/I/51QR-B9n6lL._SL500_AA300_.jpg&w=300&h=300&ei=EeDiT-mCJuTUigeihMGLDw&zoom=1&iact=hc&vpx=179&vpy=139&dur=316&hovh=194&hovw=194&tx=155&ty=96&sig=103948172437140513322&page=1&tbnh=127&tbnw=127&start=0&ndsp=30&ved=1t:429,r:0,s:0,i:72 (wow that’s a big link) and spray painting it on the side of Pandora.
 
I’ve slowly been doing a deep clean of my flat in preparation for an inspection and also to better organise myself for TAFE. Been playing lots of Battlefield 3 and the Company of Heroes modification Modern Combat. Other than that, not much is going on.

Watch Dogs

 

My Thoughts on my Relationships

My thoughts on my past relationships... unless you're a machine or have a basic understanding of binary code, I'm totally fucked up.

Forgive the repost.


My favourite word? Awesome, and this is indeed awesome.

Prepare thyself for the awesomeness!

 
 


One of my Favourite Episodes of Star Trek Ever

http://www.free-tv-video-online.me/player/gorillavid.php?id=ihmh8j9dpubx

Cycle-Skating

 

For The Cat Lovers in my Circle

 

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Previous Posts
M3rry ******* Christmas!, posted December 24th, 2012
Hello EP, it's been too long., posted December 13th, 2012
Entertainment, posted July 20th, 2012
Hey Kids, Check Out The Original 'Emo'!, posted July 12th, 2012
Because it Makes me Feel Better, posted July 12th, 2012
On a Happy Note, Eye Candy and Puns, posted July 12th, 2012
On a Happy Note, Eye Candy and Puns, posted July 12th, 2012
My State of Mind, posted July 12th, 2012
Maths... With Guns and Jetpacks, posted June 29th, 2012, 1 comment
Stuff and Things, posted June 21st, 2012, 2 comments
Watch Dogs, posted June 6th, 2012
My Thoughts on my Relationships, posted May 30th, 2012
My favourite word? Awesome, and this is indeed awesome., posted May 30th, 2012
One of my Favourite Episodes of Star Trek Ever, posted May 30th, 2012
Cycle-Skating, posted May 21st, 2012
For The Cat Lovers in my Circle, posted May 21st, 2012, 2 comments
Lazy Title 4, posted May 19th, 2012
Lazy Title 3, posted May 19th, 2012
Title 2, posted May 19th, 2012
Title, posted May 19th, 2012, 2 comments
Lol, the 80's, posted May 19th, 2012
Operation Sitting Bull, posted May 19th, 2012
You Know You're too Involved in a Game When...., posted May 16th, 2012
Oh Yeah!, posted May 16th, 2012
Wonder and Awe, posted May 15th, 2012
PR: An Introduction to War, posted May 14th, 2012
The Project Reality Experience, posted May 14th, 2012
What I've Been Playing as of Late, posted May 14th, 2012
Woorah! It's Been Released!, posted May 14th, 2012
Cheap Stuff, posted May 13th, 2012
Who Speaks for Earth?, posted May 12th, 2012
Montage of Awesomenss, posted May 10th, 2012
Ghost in Hong Kong, posted April 19th, 2012
My Favourite Anime Scene, posted April 19th, 2012
The Fall of Modern Computing and the Post Silicon Era, posted April 19th, 2012
Facepalm, posted April 15th, 2012
Save NASA, posted April 14th, 2012
LordNothing's Plan For A Better World, posted April 9th, 2012, 2 comments
Dear Game Developers, posted April 9th, 2012
Even Now We Are Making Plans To Stop Bender!, posted April 7th, 2012
Free Stuff, posted April 6th, 2012
Because It's Groovy, posted April 5th, 2012, 2 comments
Xtreme Moron!, posted April 2nd, 2012
Australia Is Odd, posted March 31st, 2012
You Can't Deny It, Nerds Are Awesome, posted March 29th, 2012, 2 comments
Traversing Familiar Grounds, posted March 22nd, 2012, 1 comment
I Find The Most Random Sh!t On You-Tube, posted March 18th, 2012
Gaming Orchestra!, posted March 15th, 2012
Trolls Are Funny, posted March 3rd, 2012
No Offence Indeed, posted February 29th, 2012
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